Tuesday, December 6, 2011

December is here~

I Love December~~~

I've come to realize i'm turning 22 soon! wa.. time flies!
Whatever it is, it's December! Battle will start on January. By then, just let me slack for the moment :D A moment to remember !


(that's my motto.. but em.... i know it is outrageously stupid...) 

Monday, November 28, 2011

不屬於我的淚 終於讓我崩潰 久遺了的淚水 每一滴都是心碎

看了后,我感叹。你。。。为何要那么像我?
心疼后,就想把你领回家,医治你的心病。可是当我换个角度想后,赫然发现了一个事实。
原来,我才是那个拥有一个不能弥补的伤痛笼罩着封密已久的旧伤口。
傷埋在回憶

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

What makes you Special :D

Yes... i will not deny that i've a mountain of work rotting on my desk, waiting patiently to be cleared by meeee~~ yet, i still have the courage to squander my time away on blogging~~ I must be insane!
The truth is, i'm kinda distracted after meta ca2 paper. It feels like i have exhausted all my energy preparing it and as a result, i can't seem to get focused for anything now.

Restless~ ~

and i don't know why...

anyway...

中国达人秀.... is worth watching!

Despite watching some of the videos various times, they can never fail to inspire me more... 
Being emotional is one thing, being appreciative of one another is another virtue. Human existence is such a magical thing, it forces us to experience different things while we breathe (aimlessly) ....

Before i end this, i would like my readers to think about those people who you would like to make connection(s) with...
if you can't think of any candidate, listen to fang da tong's song - 



聽說人呻鳴
聽說人分離
聽說人都說愛也無法證明
壞 別在數我的
怪 別在訴她的
再也不視你的美

So long ... my friends,
Pearlyn

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Social stigma against homosexuality is a good way to ensure that homosapiens do not become extinct, no?  ( borrowed this sentence from YY)

Hahaha... it's kinda creepy cuz i've raised a similar question about this topic to my mum (just this afternoon) and here i am seeing such question brought forward by my friend in her blog. :D

Recently, (and like finally having break time to browse youtube~~) i was just randomly selecting some recommended youtube vids to watch, and this particular youtuber called  DivaDarlingChic ( well, you can always click on the link to check him out) caught my attention. Personally, i'm quite amazed by him for being him.
And so, being forever curious, i went to ask my mum whether she would be freaked out by people like Ben? And her answer was EXPECTED - run away from such a person. hahahaha.. Although i'm totally expecting her to react that way, i can't help expressing my disappointment.
My mum is the quintessential person who STRONGLY believes that human being is defined by sex chromosomes. there shouldn't be any in-betweens and thus, if you have a Y chromosome please ensure you behave to be one..... and i can't believe that she use my DAD as an example to support her idea?! hahahah... seriously, the way she countered my question was nothing more but absolute hilarious. hahaha...

If fate permits, i would like to meet people like Ben, Zee (<3) and etc. actually, i don't think that they are indifferent from anyone of us, and so why should we judge them this way? i used to credulously believe that all whites are superior, now not anymore. not because they are not intelligent, in fact most of them are outstanding in their own way, but because Asian may not lose out in terms of competitiveness. :D

Hahah... currently, i'm having a severe headache... and all the more i should rest but... i can't seem to stop myself from updating my half dead online diary - in short blog.... hehehe

Alright time to get some rest before doing sth meaningful :D

Peace out,
Pearlyn

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

再给我两分钟

Something crossed my mind but i can't seem to recall anything....


When people said they miss each other, i thought they are just humoring themselves or others. However, if the same idea was repeatedly emphasized, it can't be ignored anymore.

Thank you for putting me in your mind.

Have you ever wondered who is/are missing you today?
I hate to contradict myself but yea, i miss people yet i don't miss anyone in particular.

Maybe, it's time for me to return to NP to consult my partner ymo. <3<3


Don't walk in front of me, 
I may not follow.
Don't walk behind me,
I may not lead.
Walk beside me and TALK - not keep quiet.

Zee- my inspiration ;p and now, this is a life-changing moment!

So long Earth,
P

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

Another HECTIC LIKE CRAZY week!

sometimes we are too blinded by work that we seem to hv forgotten to show more compassion to others. 
i thank god and my parents for being supportive to me during my low periods :D hhaa.. 


and seriously, at times when i'm too tired or disappointed with the things happening in my life, somehow it will also be the time where i can find the inspiration or strength to continue on... 
thank you for being trusting about my abilities when i felt ive lose it all already. it is your loyal faith that made me feel invincible and alive again. 


Finally, i'm grateful that... i'm born to be a girl, not yet a woman. ;pp 






我喜歡跟怕麻煩的人交朋友, 因為他不會找我麻煩


P

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

เคยรักฉันจริงๆ หรือเปล่า



ong看mang万不老,阿体桑gao羊men告,ruan特r­uan mo,tou呆。 本看体怕zhai,萨色太特ga冬白,moon他ze kruai体崩干。 八森体羊桑塞,ge米外美zhai shen,坑di de ke bong根。 神秘帝ki比en晒买,特克ruai森tenten户包,八体桑­白
 他户不老,木bang体ruang,有看看干,看米五moon体­特 户僧,玩乐glou blou kai软根,向宅kou zhai,外t梦还在。


 เธอเคยรักฉันจริงๆรึเปล่า 

แบบที่ฉันรักเธอรึเปล่า


she infiltrates my mind... Zee


Like Yes Or No!

Friday, August 26, 2011

ง่ายๆแต่เหงา

How i wished I could split myself into 2?
How i wished I could lend u a helping hand instead of watching you getting involved in the difficulty positions. 

Hang in there little one! Have Faith! 

Without sch, i may be able to attend and resolve such problems. On the other hand, the idea of not gg to sch is just as torturing.

Exhausted, looking like a ghost,
Pearlyn

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

好的事情 最后虽然结束 感动十分 就有十分满足

HEYO! 

i noticed that my recent headings were all in chinese! well... most likely it is because, the lyrics of a particular song is playing tricks with my mind right now...

Anyway.. im thinking whether if i should take a lead now. Not sure if i could commit. Mmm.. need more consultation but i shall see how things go~ 

感动十分 就有十分满足

Thinking in process,
P

Sunday, August 7, 2011

It's 2.45am

I asked myself.... why am i still online at this unearthly hour?
and then i realized i have some bothering issues left unanswered deep within my soul....
and i still thought nothing in this world could possibly affect me so deeply after all these years...
Perhaps too much htht breaks my heart...
Perhaps, i shouldn't know it right from the start...
Sometimes, ignorance still prove to be my best friend... too trusting or devoted  kills...
As for now, let it be even though the road ahead seems rocky.
 I'm
     not
         perfect...
                       Sorry.

I'm just a human.

rock it baby,

Saturday, July 30, 2011

好久不見你還好嘛 你的小狗長大了嗎

Unexpectedly, there ARE songs which could infiltrate MY mind right now w no prior sign...
Honestly, I'm not a big fan of ke$ha, but i got to say her *take it off* song has taken over my soul and body. As though it has permission the body to synchronize with the music...

Lose your mind.
Lose it now.
Lose your clothes
In the crowd.
We're delirious.
Tear it down
'Til the sun comes back around.

N-now we're getting so smashed.
Knocking over trash cans.
Everybody breakin' bottles
It's a filthy hot mess.
Gonna get faded
I'm not the designated
Driver so
I don't give a
I don't give a
I don't give a

There's a place downtown,
Where the freaks all come around.
It's a hole in the wall.
It's a dirty free for all.

And they turn me on.
When they Take It Off.
When they Take It Off.
Everybody Take It Off.

There's a place I know
If you're looking for a show.
Where they go hardcore
And there's glitter on the floor.



And they turn me on.
When they Take It Off.
When they Take It Off.
Everybody Take It Off.

Oh, oh, oh!

EVERYBODY TAKE IT OFF!

Oh, Oh, Oh!

EVERYBODY TAKE IT OFF!

Right now! TAKE IT OFF!
Right now! TAKE IT OFF!
Right now! TAKE IT OFF!

Anyway without a question i'm a fan of Britney's music, be it in the past or now. Esp Songs like hold it against me, till the world ends and even i wanna go... these hits may be clouded with heavy commercial shadows however, it never fails to make me love them. Hahaha.. Then again, it's kinda sad tt i have to refrain from selecting them in ktv, cause most likely others wouldn't sing it w me. Moreover, even if it were (fated) to be sung, it's gonna be very difficult and awkward to be high in the room. And it would be at this very moments, i would really wished Kal is with me. 
So as to dance without hesitation and - GET WILD! 

Now i think about it, my life is kinda plain right now as compared to the past. Hence, When they Take It Off, Everybody Takes It Off - just show how much I yearn to be free da da da da da da... > Like Always (Imagine how Snape would have said this sentence)


Lately I've Been Stuck Imaginin'
What I Wanna Do and What I Really Think, Time To Flow Out
Be A Little Inappropriate Cause I Know That Everybody’s Thinkin' It When The Lights Out

Shame On Me
To Need Release
Un-Uncontrollably

I I I Wanna Go o o, All The Way ay ay
Takin' Out My Freak Tonight
I I I Wanna Show ow ow
All The Dirt ir irt
I Got Running Through My Mind (Repeat)



I simply just LOVE them! Ohya, remember to listen to Gaga's - 
On the edge of glory

On the lighter note, I think Jay Chou is cute to a certain extent. Maybe it's due to the MTV effect. haha whatever it is... what i think would remain what i think... for not long... haha..
;P


It's simple to think that it's simple (the meaning behind this sentence is very deep ^^b)

Ohh... before i end this miserably long crappy post, i'll continue with one last thing.. ok, last 2 things... haha...
Today, i had attended some ceremony alone and so, to avoid awkward situations like time delays and etc... i brought chinese novels to (hopefully) keep myself occupied (sending a "do not disturb" signal to others)  ok.. it's not like some big news , but what was truly intriguing to me was.... the person who sat beside me was very SURPRISED that i read chinese books... erm... and what makes the world so small... he is my coursemate, and we have been in the same semester all along... KINDA CREEPY actuallyyy... what shot me way down was... the first sentence he made to me..... haha i shall save myself for not divulging the content further. anyway.. what a small world! 

Oh... and why must all the uni male scholars be tall, handsome and charismatic? Hey World... is this fair?

Time to rest,
Pearlyn 


Saturday, July 23, 2011

Nice Guys Finish Last, That's Why I Treat You Like A Trash

So i say a little prayer and hope my dreams will take me there


Cuz -> Once again I'm thinking about taking the easy way outtttt~~

Too much singing sessions in this entire July just make me feel incredibly vocal....haha ... But It's such a shame that July is coming to an end and up to this point, I have yet to feel fully rejuvenated. Well, at the very least, I've accomplished one very important thing, which is to watch my long awaited Harry Potter P2. Finally, I get to part my ways slowly with the things (not just about HP) that I always wanted to. Step by step, I know i'm on the right direction. It's not always easy to say goodbyes, but deep within I know, I ought to. Otherwise, the side effects accompanied with it would grow stronger with each passing day. For I understand the purpose of this game, and all i longed for is to put them right past me before school reopens. It may sounds all the more silly since technically speaking, i'm the ultimate culprit who brought them all upon myself and deserve absolutely no pity.... and now, i want it safely undetected. 
Thank You All, for being my happy potion all these while! Let's keep it simple, real and genuine. 

~For each new morning with its light,
For rest and shelter of the night,
For health and food,
For love and friends,
For everything Thy goodness sends.~



Be ThankFully,
PeaRLYN

(Love the Imperfections, because being a Perfectionist is just plain Imposer)

Thursday, July 7, 2011

here and there

亲爱的,那不是爱情。

不知何为惆怅。。。。这一秒的我,选择安静了。


你我约定 
一争吵很快要喊停 
也说好没有秘密彼此很透明



天地一秒

Monday, July 4, 2011

time for BED!

Omg Omg Omg!
Year 4 mods are SUPER tempting! they are like leeching away my attention!


Can I make it?


Desperate,
Pearlyn


Friday, June 24, 2011

how i wished u can tell me!

SOH SIANG HOON! YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU!


don't hide anything from me..... :'{

I wanna know!
I wanna know!
I wanna know!
I wanna know!
I really wanna know! i can't wait till tomorrow~
You can't keep me in suspense! Seriously.. i'll suffocate and DIE! PLS>>> enlighten me! Shit~ i'm gg bonkers alr!


Moshulu camp tee!

Anyways, side track a bit... this is Moshulu tee! > Teamwork = > 100%

and...and... i told myself to pack for the camp but hahaha... in the end, the progress of packing = 0%. effort to even try packing it is 1% and reason = lack of 99% of motivation
Okie, i hv to be more discipline~ Here i gooooo~~~


Up there flying in circles,
Pearlyn

Thursday, June 23, 2011

Running madly w my heels on


what a great night

and it reminds me of the sweet oiap days :D  On top of that, let me further emphasize that i may be a insensitive scatterbrain w high tendency to forget every tiny winy things that took place in my boring life but what i do rmb is that, our lives are short, why make it shorter with unhappiness-ism?

Come to think about it, the essence of happiness is probably to live contented. 

What a beautiful night :D  May all the positive energies be bestowed into my turbulent heart.

Neatly defined,
P



Isn't this pic adorable yet truthful? ouch... :]

Sunday, June 19, 2011

there comes a day, when i'll be the one, you will seeeeeee...

Assignment 4


the prof wouldn't know how grateful i was when i received it from his divine hands.



He said to me - "Pearlyn, you have finally made it."

Thanks YY, u hv made my dream come true!


Yipee,
Pearlyn

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Monday, June 6, 2011

Monday, May 30, 2011

太多怨气不是元气

第一次听到别人说我唱的歌里好有怨气~~
我听了只觉得好气又好笑。 不过呢,这倒还蛮可爱的。

Seriously, i think something is wrong with my chinese sentence cuz it doesnt flow well... but anyways, personally, i would never have thought about it if it wasn't pointed out by someone else.

hehex, Well, it's not like some serious comment and so, i shouldn't even take it seriously. However, it's just clinging on without any sign of leaving.
Haha.. i didn't know CSC has so many 歌王歌后!Hence, i felt very privileged to be with them in such a beautiful night.

And the person who i want to thank is no other then - Stephanie! If it wasn't for her, i guess my uni life would be pretty much the same.

世界上没有所谓的巧合,有的是……必然。

Bless,
Pearlyn




Sunday, May 29, 2011

I feel your love......... ReflectioN mitsumekaesu hitomi ni egaite haruka na Neverending Story

too many readings... lolx!

hahah.. what i'm trying to say is, it's been a hectic week with camp preparation on the left hand, mentoring session on the right, it makes me wonder how to work out a grand plan to include my reading materials in as well. No doubt, i still have to attend most *ahem* outings, however that is gonna depend if i can buy more time.
I have to say, i'm very fortunate to be in an awesome team, be it the camp, mentoring or the EU class despite being one of the "less contributing" factors, (lolx) i'm glad tt they still rope me in. hehez. I'm just plain Lucky!
Anyways.... yesterday, i dreamt of a Moon that was extremely clear and near. So what's the big deal? Well, it is a big deal because it is raining cats and dogs now. i shall advocate that my dream has had an indirect effect on the surrounding... HAHHAHA.. ok, i think it's a bit way exaggerated.


Hope everything will turn out FUN!

Flying to the Moon,
Pearlyn


Wednesday, May 18, 2011

I love it!


wooohooo.. wad a blast week i had!
the truth is, i love interaction!
there's a small part of me that shouts democracy and freedom, yet at the same time i wanna reject those noble ideologies! As for now, let my colorful fantasies filled with ardour; and just how i wished time could stop at the very celebrated moment.

i didn't want it to end....


crap, i should be drafting my report, but who could arbitrate between the creation of die-hard emotion and the formation of boring report writing?

losing sanity in process, haha... then again, it is a sweet process. :D

eccentric,
pearlyn




Thursday, May 12, 2011

zutto zutto

don't ask me to say something intelligent because i can't.
Not that i want to deny anything but i must be honest to myself.... seriously, i really think that i am only capable of talking rubbish.... :'( & docile is an adjective that doesn't SUIT me at all.. TYVM. hahahahaha

why am i so negative? well, that's because i took a mod which is definitely very "out of the box" for me. Hahaha... yea, the mod is called European Union. Initially, i thought it would be focusing on the European long historyyyy... however, i guess i am quite wrong. But then again, i think i might like it, because the lecturer has a sense of humor. Well, shall see how it goes. God Bless Me.

By the way, i didn't know that the past tense of weak is wrought. I mean, you can't blame me right?

Too much to say but in the end, i'm just another ordinary person who beseeches to be heard.

Pearl

Monday, May 9, 2011

Pearlyn's depression

Everyone knows why I am depressed. Yes, I am very affected by it. I cried when the hairdresser was busying cutting my hair. Haha. Well, obviously it was not because she screwed my hair but it was the speech made by our all time favorite Mr George Yeo. I’ve already tried to hold back my tears when he spoke to the people in the stadium; but alas, emotion has caught up with my rational senses when I saw his statement on Straits Times.

This May has been a difficult month for me. Not only did I have to endure the exam stress, apparently this election has got me so agitated and ignited that more recovery is needed to heal my broken heart. But who knows, maybe (once in a while having) some heartache might be good for my body….

And…. Regarding the hot topic - Nicole S, initially I didn’t like her as she was up against Mr Goh however after everything had ended, the things she has said and delivered just made me admired her more. Despite her age, she has proved herself as a worthy warrior because you just can’t discredit her. Likewise, as much as I wanted pap to win, I didn’t want Mr Chiam to leave potong pasir. I genuinely respect his passion for politics and determination to be the alternative voice for the citizen. His departure scarred by soul even further.

Haiz… this is just depressing…. We know you will be back :D

Anyway, it will be another long journey ahead for Singapore. Let’s progress as a nation and bring the best for the people. We’re on your back!



(How i felt for pap - well described by this pic)

Nostalgia,

Pearlyn


Thursday, May 5, 2011

What's up with the fuss?

Election Day is nearing and I’m disappointed that I’m not entitled to vote. While many count me lucky, I find it risky.

Although I’m not related to the PAP, I must say, my vote is for you and will always be for you – unless something screws the system up.

Think about it- in order to move fast, think fast and execute fast in this cycle of globalisation, we need a cooperative government to bring out the best for the people. If we allowed opposition to infiltrate the parliament, will the country loses its focus? Well, you may argue that I am being narrow-minded or pap has made successful propaganda on me, however, I have eyes and heart to judge their contributions. They can’t fabricate fairytale out of nowhere~

Another point I want to emphasis – Have you not enjoy any benefit from the country? Well...At the least, Singapore is a safe country and that should not be taken for granted.

AND When we look at the housing issue, it is a complex management. It is definitely not just a Singapore problem, it is a global problem.

Take a country that is similar to us – Hong Kong

How would you feel if you are a newlywed in Hong Kong, do you think that there are better off schemes comparable to us?

Salary issue

Yes, that’s the price for being monitored like a celebrity. Have you seen a MP clubs? Could he? He might even need bodyguards when he wants to take a loo. Any misconduct from the government will result in dire consequences. However, since the people have voiced out their concerns about the salary issue, it would be imprudent to leave it unanswered.

Well, recently I have heard irresponsible remarks from young people which made me very agitated and sad because they want to experiment their votes and jeopardize the result.

>> Because I know they are going to win the election,

that’s why I’m voting the opposition party to pull down the percentage….

Fair enough if you chose to believe in the opposition parties, if not please be a responsible citizen. The development of the country is at stake, for goodness sake! Am I exaggerating? No, I’m dead serious about it.

Something that I wanna share –

Ytd, I took a cab back home and this very grandfatherly taxi uncle talked about how he landed in this taxi job. mmm...He was supposed to be a retired man, but the government suggested that he should re-employed. Hence they offered to pay the taxi examination fees for him upon his graduation. So he guessed that the government is indeed taking care of the ppl's welfare. Furthermore, the fees are fully waived, so why not learn another skill?

On the other hand, people might argue that people from other countries can live off pension and so why we can’t follow the model? By now, hope you understand why we don’t follow that.

All and All… the vote is absolutely yours. Make your best choice :D

I love my country Singapore :D

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

what's up duck?

i must be that special
yes i am :D



I didn't have tomorrow
It must be
It must be
It has to be

^^b


Pearlyn
Shining

Friday, April 15, 2011

sawatdii wan pii may phaa


The thing is, when you have this BAD habit of msging the wrong person, it can hit you HARD!

It is a BAD BAD HABIT, but i can't be blamed, can i?
Sometimes, the sunlight shone so brightly onto my face, i can't see wad i'm texting ~~ and what's worst? hahaa... friends will question me if i've sent to the wrg person WHEN the text was really meant for them! Silly silly silly...


BAD HABIT! I'll try not to send wrg msgs again~~



Ohh.. i've found a motivational song! and i believe it is really inspiring! It is called -> Something bout love by David Archuleta.
Haha.. i know it is kinda OLD song already, but i myself was puzzled when it hit my head today. After going through the lyrics, i was astounded!
The lyrics supported me through tough times, especially at times when i felt tt i'm losing my interest/love for Science then here comes the song -> There's something bout love that breaks your heart Whoa oh oh oh.... But Don't Give Up

Apparently, the entire song was a constant reminder for myself! There's something bout Science that breaks my heart Whoa oh oh oh But Don't Give Up. Similarly, if you are feeling hopeless, please listen to this song and brace yourself up. Because, there's something bout love that breaks your heart whoa oh oh oh It Sets You Free... lol... it is just awesome to sing this song as it reinforces how love can set you free mentally....

However, putting all the stress aside, i must say my Uni friends ROCK my life!

mmm..... i think on my report card, under socializing i should be able to get an A+.
LOLOLx. There something bout them that makes me smile whoa oh oh oh i still believe ~ :D


Hehex,
Pearlyn

what's on my wishlist now: Thailand trip

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

and it's telling me that i'm about to win FIRST prize!

and so i tot only girls do that.....


pardon me... but i always thought only girls like to declare themselves to be attached to another girl on fb relationship status. however, i got a real shock when i saw guys do that to guys too... what is wrong with you ppl?
  • too lonely huh?

anyways, i'm looking forward to mentoring hoc :D well ... thinking about it....
hey, to have mentoring activities invading my life was perhaps one of the best things ever hit upon me :D teehee

chan tong rian hard phr2 waa chan yaak ca khit khaw thuk wan :D t33 may mii weelaa l33w, phr2 waa chan hay rian weelaa day t33 may hay weelaa hay khaw........
555... lvvm l33w~ chan khit chan rak rian maak kwaa pay khit khaw. tok long!
teehee

Learning thai is fun! you should too! so that, raw phuut phasaa thay kan!

Thursday, March 24, 2011

caUse yoU feel like paradise and i need a vacation tonight

haha... i realised that i have so many grammar mistakes on my previous posts... but whatever, i don't give a damn....


people experienced changes when they entered into uni, at first, i shrugged my shoulders but now, i start to see how things have taken a toll.
it cannot be faulted as things turned out this way despite all the grumbles and tears shed for the unsatisfied soul. and so i guess.... let's move on..... and let it go. the harder you tried to catch that something, the darker the panda circles are going to expand its territories.

you know, i'm easily amazed by life. Once you induce stress to a living organism, changes occurred simultaneously as it tries to adapt to the condition. frustrations and grievances are everywhere.... and undeniably, i'm one of the generators too, however, along the way you will see the formation of genuine friendships. Sometimes, small small thing like an encouraging sms served all purposes :D and i wondered, how come people can accumulate so many interesting smses! and if i disseminates it to you, it is because i hope to spread the happiness i attained from the msg to you too :]
it's that simple and innocent with no strings attached.

it's gonna be now or never :D

Pearlyn

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Shattered piece of Soul


as i begin this post, i knew some things have changed.
hopefully, it will bring about something positive because i am sick and tired of myself [how can i be less careless? why am i missing out all the details in my life? or am i just too blind? should have checked thoroughly before handing up my homework! - yea, see what i mean... i need a life and get away from ---- SCHOOL!]


!&#&^@*!(#^*!)@_#&@*!&@(*!*$#(!)!_!$^$*)()(#)!#*!_!#*#^*&*!!#)(2Q*#*

I'm a Lost kid


anyways... i've just watched a thai horror movie at like 10pm in the theater and so i guess..... i must be INSANE.


yea.. i know... i'm a little out of box :D and i Love It :D

Sincerely,
P

Monday, March 14, 2011

Passing your strength to help you grow~

> It didn't start out to be a good week but I know, i need to deal with it.

Dwelling in my pathetic mindset has indeed, rampaged my life. I felt that emptiness has set in and hits me real hard. They said, grades aren't everything that matter in life yet sadly, it IS affecting me in every way. In fact, over the years, i have been rather too academic driven which therefore resulted in the formation of my (silent) split personalities. One moment, i could be easily annoyed by an insignificant occurrence while at another moment, performing mind drift.
However, can i be more sensible? Look at what is happening in the world! Just as we thought our life is shitty, how would it feel to be compared to the Japanese, who lost their homes due to the Earthquakes. And how about those in our community? some of them may have experienced trauma in their life yet, they do not give up their life easily. who am i then to compare myself to their situation? shame on me.
What can i possibly lose?
We can't restart our lives and so we want to make our first time right. But, is mistake preventable or inevitable? Or are we overconfident? Is our pride at stake? Could we possibly map out a "prefect" plan? Well, with the education i've been receiving from reading kindaichi, i know for sure that there isn't a way to conduct a prefect plan. (Oh man, i miss kindaichi - 堂本剛の金田一 )
phewwww~~~

一起欣赏经典中的经典


The songs from Kindaichi anime are nice but this particular 3 (to me) were the classics!
*recommendations : Confused memories (always made me confused), boobee magic, sink etc~





Kimi ga iru kara: Because You're Here [Most classical! I mean, it's the 1st OP for Kindaichi so for hardcore fans like me, it is IMPRINTED into my brain! Because *Kindaichi* was Here (throughout my childhood)]

And I esp want to mention this 2nd part of lyrics - みんな、そう 迷子のように ほんとは生きてて 探してるふりをしながら ほんとは探されたい - Everyone acts like they're lost. They live pretending to look but only wanting to be found. (thinking in process)
愛はなぜ この地球にうまれるの?人はなぜ 傷つけるくせに 許されたいの?-
Why does love exist in this Earth? Why do people hurt others, but want to be forgiven?



2 persons: 1st ED for the anime! and you can't MISS this because you simply can't! Rie sang this beautifully with her gentle voice. After hearing this song, don't you feel like you are missing that someone special right now? :D



White Page: Gotta say - "THIS IS CLASSIC!" Apart from the 2 mentioned above, this song generates another type of feeling which is - agony. So now, my dear friends let's not waste our time and start making tomorrow a better day! Shall we? :)

ch66n kha?

Sincerely,
Pearlyn : who has too much crap in her mind.....


Friday, March 4, 2011

A Little Secret About Me [Mario Maurer]


Movie is my drug. Watching movies is an action of my addiction.

And watching a damn awesome (in my opinion) movie is like, how the drug has kicked in, relieving my addiction. I don’t know how I should put this feeling into words anymore because this feeling is beyond words. It is probably the kind of feeling I’ve been yearning for, searching for and pursuing for. Haiya.. HOW TO DESCRIBE THIS FEELING?! I’M SO EXCITED ABOUT IT! It’s like….. falling in LOVE! AHHH! YES! That’s the feeling! Falling in love!

I guess I’ve found the reason why I love to watch movies so much. Every good (must be extremely good) movie that I have watched has given me this good feeling. It is a feeling that I want to shout it OUT loud; it is a special moment that I want to share with the whole world and jumps around! I know it might sound crazy! But… I almost forgot this feeling until I found this thai movie called a crazy little thing called love. I'm sure that you have watched a movie before and there are many interesting movies past our eyes but only those that made an impact would continue to leave their special footprint in our sous right [chay may]?

For me.......... My soul is no longer free because I’m trapped in the stories told in the movies and my mind has became the victim in this game. CAN YOU FEEL what I’m FEELING right now?! It’s too overwhelming! The desire to love P’SHONE gets magnified as the movie proceeded. I know it’s a movie. However, I’m dramatic and being me means getting emotional at the wrong time is the way of my life.

Above ARE MY NONSENSES! Hahaha… after typing so much stuff, it would be heartbreaking to delete them all so I shall leave it up there. What I’ve typed above is about my confession to good movies, especially the one that I’ve just finished watching. Honestly, I think Thai movies are awesome. The very first Thai movie that I’ve watched was Beautiful Boxer, and its impact to me was so great that it somehow changed me a little from my past self. This new movie was perhaps my number 5-6 Thai movie but unlike the first that sorta of creates a wooha out of my life, this one nourishes my soul, my well-being as a whole and kept me building castles in the air. In the near future, I might forget the existence of this movie despite claiming all the love received from the movie, but I know tonight I’m gonna place it deep inside my heart. This indulgent and obsession feeling may perhaps robbed my sanity yet indisputably, I felt spiritually contented. And IF my love is wrong, who has the right to judge me?

In the end, the most important fact that stood valid today (in 2 hrs time it would not be valid) is, I’m in LOVE with the movie – P’SHONE [Mario Maurer] > It’s like… how to not like Ashton Kutcher?

Speaking of Mario and Ashton, I think both are talented actors/models and have been through a lot in this entertainment biz with astonishing achievements. Inevitably, I’m very jealous about them not just because they are talented and awesomely hot (oopss hehex), but also because they represent new age men with sense packaged in timeless fashion.

Conclusion (note: this is a conclusion for me and not about the whole silly post)

Mario has opened another door to my inner world. Although the cruel fact is that P’SHONE is just an imaginary figure, he may and (P’SHONE!) will always stay in my mind. (for v v v long period of time before he gets replaced).

Falling love is not that hard, but it’s just a matter of………………………….. khray. (hahaha)

Chan rak thaae, kwaycay may kha? Mario kap P’shone, khray lor kwaa kan kha? Chan ch22p P’Shone, ca khun pen f33n dichan may? Nakrian. :D haha…

Sincerely,

Pearlyn