Sunday, September 21, 2014

Why would it matter?

My biggest fear?
Disappointment(s) from my friends.
Nothing to do!
Yup, you have heard me, I am very scare that I have nothing to do!

Due to my insecurities, I usually ask my best friend google for answer; and without disappointment, I found this particular article addressing my current problem!

http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/the-science-success/201101/the-trouble-bright-girls

Not to say that I am a bright person (I highly doubt so), but I gave it all up so easily! If I could settle for something less, maybe it would be good for me? Maybe, something stable is really what I have been looking out for all along?

Following instructions may be better right?


Tuesday, July 15, 2014

Slow Down, Take A Step Back and Look Around

I AM BEYOND CURE I KNOW

SOMETIMES BEING STUBBORN DRAINS ME A LOT

SOMETIMES I FAILED TO BE ABLE TO LOOK AT THE BIGGER PICTURE, THINKING THAT I AM WAY CAPABLE THAN THAT BUT I THE ACTUAL FACT IS THAT I AM NOT. SADLY, I AM VERY HONEST TO MYSELF.

I AM NEW

I AM FRESH

I AM RAW AND 
FAILURE UP FRONT PUSHES ME TO THE CORNER WHERE I FEAR TO ACKNOWLEDGE IT WITH MY TEARS; MASKING MY VULNERABILITIES AND SHADOWING MY SMILES TO COVER THOSE PROMINENT SCARS THAT I VOWED TO NEVER REVEAL.

DOUBTING MYSELF BECOMES EASIER
TO ESCAPE FROM
THINGS I REFUSE TO CONFRONT

RIGHT NOW, I AM WEAK
IN FRONT OF YOU, I AM NOTHING
YOU SAW MY STRENGTHS AND MY WEAKNESSES
I REVEAL THEM ALL 
TRYING TO HIDE WASNT AN OPTION, BECAUSE YOU WILL LOOK THROUGH ME 
I AM EXPOSED
I AM SCARED

WHAT IS LIFE? WHAT IS MY LIFE?

TAKING A SLOWER STEP, TAKING A CLOSER LOOK AT MY SURROUNDINGS, ENGAGING AND ACCEPTING CHANGES 
MAYBE ONE DAY
YOU WILL BE TOUCHED BY MY SINCERITY
I WANTED TO HELP
I WANTED TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE
I AM STILL ME
I AM STILL PEARLYN
NOTHING CHANGES
BUT YOUR PERCEPTIONS CHANGED
YOUR ATTITUDE DEVIATES

SOMETIMES LOSING A LITTLE BIT DOESNT EQUATE TO CONSTANT LOSS
BUT EACH THING HAS IT VALUES
I VALUED ALL
HOWEVER, I DONT HAVE THE FINAL SAY
YOU CAN DECIDE TO RUN AWAY
I CAN DECIDE TO RUN AWAY

FOR THERE ARE MORE IMPORTANT PEOPLE AHEAD
WHO ARE WILLING 
TO TAKE ON MY HAND 
PUTTING FAITH IN ME
NOTING MY WORTH AND VALUE

I MAY HAVE LOST YOU
I AM HERE FOR A GREATER CAUSE
I AM HERE TO STAY
I AM HERE TO SERVE

One fine day, I hope you could celebrate the times we had together 
Precious memories dont come easily
i cherish those moments a lot
it meant a lot

"It doesnt matter who is coming, but who came?"

我的爱可以和大,可以很广,可以无条件地包容及容忍。
因为爱所以坚持
所以了呼吸的勇气·
所以有了这美丽的生命

别人不懂,没关系
别人放手,没关系

还好还有自己。
这个世界,你不会孤单。因为我会陪着你。
就算我孤单了,还好我还有爱自己的自己。

:) 



Thursday, May 22, 2014

You Should Not Go Away

What does that mean? Who could decipher?

Anyways, by chance, I read the first few chapters of Singapore Love Story by Mr Low Kay Hwa. To be honest, I have heard about him through facebook and knew that he is a talented novelist but to find time to read his stories never cross my mind.
Today, I truly understand why he deserved the title. In fact, his ability to garner so much readers (or fans) becomes less of a surprise. hahah Not only does the story carries substances, it is original (unique/atypical) with local flavour well retained.
I shall hit the bookstore and get a copy soon!
It was a good read indeed. :)

When I was younger, I love to read Chinese novels and gradually I become aware that subconsciously my mind starts to develop plots of random strangers and events. Subsequently, whether the plots could be controlled or manipulated by my mind varies significantly, however, by linking up all the imaginary events and perhaps polish them a little to make them smooth, could at times be fine tuned into a story which I personally deemed wonderful.
In contrast to my "younger" days, I have slowly (though not entirely) moved away from this tendency, because it requires energy coupled with (undivided) focus (which also means that you may look disinterested or daydreaming to others). Im serious! hahaha sometimes, it can get out of hand if I am too engrossed with the series of stories in my head... it is particularly frustrating when you are trying to sleep but the plots (creativity juice?) in your head keeps generating new elements; luring you to unravel the next episode and the next episode and the next episode and it never ends because you can never find a perfect time to END it.  (((O panda eyes O)))


That's ALL (my rantings) for now~ Lovewww

hahahaha.
Love,
Miss P



Saturday, February 1, 2014

He Nailed It Again



Nat <3
Cant believe that he composed this song because .... it is a sad sad song.... cant help but to ponder, did he encountered any special during his composition? Probably, something has triggered him ....oh man
erm.... the melody will somehow (unintentionally) trigger those small lonely moments in (my) life. 
And it lingers.... scary....
Not that the idea of being lonely terrifies me, but on a different level, it creates a feeling which cannot be described. Hahahah 
Well, spend a few minutes listening to the song ~ Although you may not understand the lyrics, let his voice and his song bring you towards his heart; thereby enable the feel to give a knock at your heart? 

There are so many things that could be deciphered from his composition... 
Somehow..... 
>> The more I share conversation with her the more lonely I get, my heart gets lonelier listening to her .... always talking/revolving about/around him

Hai.... nice guys finish last

Stop Blogging When YOU HAVE SOMETHING MORE URGENT TO ATTEND?!!!!


On a side note, I cant help it....

Love his eyelashes ... how could it be longer than the female lead?!

<3 Miss P