i need a work which can teach me something... i need something which can educate me something... bring something meaningful to my time and soul... but sadly, my job is corroding my empty shell slowly ...
I wanted to be perfect... but i know it is not possible.. AND because i know it's impossible, my subconscious refused to not imagine myself as a perfect nobody... unless you know how it feels to feel this wasted way, else you would think this is a mere rant... isnt it?
because, life is too short, i want to do something useful. something that i could fit in... although im not gonna swear that i will never take up any more admin related jobs eveerrr again, before future strikes me hard, (OUCHS) it would be simply naive to deceive myself from any possibilities.... i hope it wouldnt be any where close! phew.. i doubt i can survive twice!
let me learn, dont be skeptical... let me make a few mistakes n i'll promise you i'll perfect my responsibilities!
I'M WILLING TO take up any ridiculous challenges that you wouldnt have imagined how much potential hidden inside me.
if you trust me, train me.
if you dont, please fire me.
i know, such an attitude for any office work is just brainless... and others may even look down on me or worst... start judging me... but hey, behind every man... leave him some dignity, will ya?
goggling my eyeballs,
Triangle
(Office Politics are too much for me to handle... frankly, i suck at those backstabbing... and what makes the matter more tricky is, in the office dont even try to act neutral.... at least, i think im 85% safe in the Office's War. You cannot be excluded even without any participation ... that's the cruel real world.
I need Thailand right now!)
