Monday, January 12, 2015

2015: Make it or Break it. I Choose

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My 2015 started out rocky, in fact, due to the poor foundation set, i was caught in the middle of nowhere. But I am glad, I am seriously counting my blessing in the midst of all the disguises.
I must really say, i owe many people in 2014 to my unprecedented thoughts.
More importantly, i let myself down. really down. I have a total lost of control of my emotions.
Despite all of that, I am still happy. It has brought me closer to the people whom I wanted to.
I would proudly declare that 2014 has helped me filtered many people in my life and I'm glad that it has done me a pretty good favor.

As for now, I am looking forward to 2015.
A brand new chapter for me.
This year, I did something different. haha. i could hardly believe that i actually brought in changes to my own habit. And that is, to write down my new year resolution :)

It is quite an amazing process and i urge you to do that too.

I used to thought that making a new year resolution is kind of a waste of time; no one really sticks to it any way. it was created to be bent (?)

hahaha

Mentally strong people tolerate and embrace change; because change is the constant. the earth will not stop rotating for you; however, if you make a plan and start to focus on that goal, the universe will align it for you.

Jack Ma said it the best. Dont choose to do something that you have no passion for, it will soon burn you out. Choose to do something which you love, and find meaning in it. because during time of adversity, only with passion, enthusiasm and love would you be able to pull through the presented challenges with grace and tenacity.


Anyway, Jack Ma inspires me hell lot. I am gonna, take a few of his teachings and place it close to my heart. Exercise it and excel
No one owes me to succeed. No one would care even; my pride, my story, my life.

I must want it so desperately that i could move heaven and earth to get it.

When friends coined me as an alpha female hahaa, i paused and ponder, i think i can be larger than that.

with that, sky is the limit :)
Time is fair

Each of us has 24 hours to use; it is how we want to put our mind to it and maximize its potential. Because I can, I can.
And I will break down those walls; using my time and youth to not only reach my goal but also to be better than 昨天的我。

不说后悔
昨天已成历史
看向我的目标,FOCUS, 向目标迈进。

Make things Happen :)


Love,
P


And this is how I feel NOW






Sunday, September 21, 2014

Why would it matter?

My biggest fear?
Disappointment(s) from my friends.
Nothing to do!
Yup, you have heard me, I am very scare that I have nothing to do!

Due to my insecurities, I usually ask my best friend google for answer; and without disappointment, I found this particular article addressing my current problem!

http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/the-science-success/201101/the-trouble-bright-girls

Not to say that I am a bright person (I highly doubt so), but I gave it all up so easily! If I could settle for something less, maybe it would be good for me? Maybe, something stable is really what I have been looking out for all along?

Following instructions may be better right?


Tuesday, July 15, 2014

Slow Down, Take A Step Back and Look Around

I AM BEYOND CURE I KNOW

SOMETIMES BEING STUBBORN DRAINS ME A LOT

SOMETIMES I FAILED TO BE ABLE TO LOOK AT THE BIGGER PICTURE, THINKING THAT I AM WAY CAPABLE THAN THAT BUT I THE ACTUAL FACT IS THAT I AM NOT. SADLY, I AM VERY HONEST TO MYSELF.

I AM NEW

I AM FRESH

I AM RAW AND 
FAILURE UP FRONT PUSHES ME TO THE CORNER WHERE I FEAR TO ACKNOWLEDGE IT WITH MY TEARS; MASKING MY VULNERABILITIES AND SHADOWING MY SMILES TO COVER THOSE PROMINENT SCARS THAT I VOWED TO NEVER REVEAL.

DOUBTING MYSELF BECOMES EASIER
TO ESCAPE FROM
THINGS I REFUSE TO CONFRONT

RIGHT NOW, I AM WEAK
IN FRONT OF YOU, I AM NOTHING
YOU SAW MY STRENGTHS AND MY WEAKNESSES
I REVEAL THEM ALL 
TRYING TO HIDE WASNT AN OPTION, BECAUSE YOU WILL LOOK THROUGH ME 
I AM EXPOSED
I AM SCARED

WHAT IS LIFE? WHAT IS MY LIFE?

TAKING A SLOWER STEP, TAKING A CLOSER LOOK AT MY SURROUNDINGS, ENGAGING AND ACCEPTING CHANGES 
MAYBE ONE DAY
YOU WILL BE TOUCHED BY MY SINCERITY
I WANTED TO HELP
I WANTED TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE
I AM STILL ME
I AM STILL PEARLYN
NOTHING CHANGES
BUT YOUR PERCEPTIONS CHANGED
YOUR ATTITUDE DEVIATES

SOMETIMES LOSING A LITTLE BIT DOESNT EQUATE TO CONSTANT LOSS
BUT EACH THING HAS IT VALUES
I VALUED ALL
HOWEVER, I DONT HAVE THE FINAL SAY
YOU CAN DECIDE TO RUN AWAY
I CAN DECIDE TO RUN AWAY

FOR THERE ARE MORE IMPORTANT PEOPLE AHEAD
WHO ARE WILLING 
TO TAKE ON MY HAND 
PUTTING FAITH IN ME
NOTING MY WORTH AND VALUE

I MAY HAVE LOST YOU
I AM HERE FOR A GREATER CAUSE
I AM HERE TO STAY
I AM HERE TO SERVE

One fine day, I hope you could celebrate the times we had together 
Precious memories dont come easily
i cherish those moments a lot
it meant a lot

"It doesnt matter who is coming, but who came?"

我的爱可以和大,可以很广,可以无条件地包容及容忍。
因为爱所以坚持
所以了呼吸的勇气·
所以有了这美丽的生命

别人不懂,没关系
别人放手,没关系

还好还有自己。
这个世界,你不会孤单。因为我会陪着你。
就算我孤单了,还好我还有爱自己的自己。

:)